I turned 27 years old this year, but when I look back into my past years I see none. I didnt achieve anything all these years. Nothing much to brag, Everyday was unproductive day. I laid on bed all day scrolling useless reels, playing PUBG and roaming on roads aimlessly for hours on my bike which I bought with my Late Fathers hard earned money. Spent so much money on cigarettes, Cool Drinks and Chai. Smoked everyday, smoking became an activity. Didnt care about the weather, didnt care whether its dawn or mid night. sometimes I travelled 50 kilometers only to smoke. Once I was the guy who hated the smell of cigarette, loathed guys who smoke. By the time I turned 23 I became the chimney.
I tried to quit many times only to pick up another cigarette. I failed every time. Still trying to end this habit. I never thought about smoking until one fine evening one of my Junior college friend messaged me. He and I were a bit close while studying in Intermediate college. Both him and I came to hyderabad for further studies. I joined in a degree college while he took a drop year to crack NEET. We both got into touch, talked for a while and decided to meet at the Osmania University campus as we both were close to the campus. We met and talked about our life. I don’t remember how the topic of smoking brought up but we thought of lighting a cigarette. I was super excited to try the cigarette.
we both went to a shop and bought two cigarettes and match box, came back to the campus area. It was dark. He lighted cigarette and brought the match stick close to me so that i can light my cigarette but i couldn’t light it as it was my very first time. We both laughed off. He took my cigarette too, put it in his mouth, lighted it and gave it for me. I coudnt drag the smoke inside and i made the filter wet. I had few puffs, started coughing by the time I finished the cigarette. that was my first experience with a cigarette.
we both went back to our respective places after recalling our memories. I didnt try another cigarette for 10 days then I decided to try once again. I went to nearby shop, bought one cigarette and lighted it inside the hostel washroom. I did same whenever I wanted to try. This became a daily thing later. My curiosity, sheer stupidity, utter foolishness all together led me to where I am now. Now the effects of smoking is clearly coming to my senses. I cant run, cant do any physical activity for few minutes. Even lifting a 20 litre water can and bringing it to first floor became a tough task.
Now I decided to end this habit. I still have one cigarette left as I am typing this blog on my laptop. that should be the last one. From tomorrow there should be no smoking. I am gonna replace that with some other healthy habit. Twenty two September two thousand twenty five (22.09.2025) is the date i.e. from today onwards I have decided to end this habit.